Some Thoughts

I have finally entered audio post on a project that at it's very beginning felt very overwhelming. So to be this far along feels quite rewarding. It is a challenging task to be doing all of this on ones own. Usually these things are done in teams. Well, more than just one person on their own anyway.

Katie, a college student from LSU

As the novelty of what I am doing wears off on most people, interest in me and my work declines. People move on with there lives. I have noticed this as the number of views for my blogs quickly decline. This is no longer amusing to some. I am no longer amusing. I am not entirely sure people back in the US understand how difficult life here can be. They say "Oh why are you complaining? You're in Europe" or something along those lines.

But truth be told, for the most part I am alone over here. I can go days without talking to anyone. The missionary family I stay with have their own lives. I only see them to pay rent. SfC is done for the summer holiday. Teams come and go, like a flash of lightning. They forget you the moment you are out of sight. Out of sight, out of mind. It seems to be a common theme in my life.

This isn't a "woe is me" post. But the feelings of loneliness and inadequacy are HUGE struggles for me. One gets to be alone so long that it you seem to forget how to interact normally with people. For it seems some days that my work is all I have. Right now, it is all I know. People tend to not go out of there way to talk to me. Its kind of bad when you think you will never have a friend again. Dating is completely out of the question at that point.


The place i feel most welcomed is at this little Presbyterian Church I attend. I love that church.

So believe me when I say it is not all fun and games over here. It is in those times when it is difficult to keep your eyes on God because you feel that His very followers have abandoned you (with the church I attend being the exception, quite odd).

Pipe Organ. I Lesnbaby'd everything Firday

Now, mind you, I wouldn't trade my time in Europe in for anything. I love what I am doing. It has it's good moments all the time. And summers is just slower for travel because most missionaries are on holiday as well. I've been told what I am doing is something important. Doesn't always feel that way, but my boss reassures me that it is. Anything i film, photograph or make is important and useable (like my little experiment with street photography). As a result, I had to photograph some old churches last Friday. It was 7 hours of walking.

Saturday was the SfC Belgium picnic in Mons. It is a beautiful little town south of Brussels.

And Sunday was the St. Andrew's Presbyterian Church picnic, which my driver got lost twice on the way there. But it was still a lot of fun.

Church Picnic. 2 of the 20's-30's

So please pray for me. There are times when i just want to give up on this whole thing, where i just want to start life over. I need moral support, and a lot of it at that. I want people to care about me, because I can assure you that I will care about them. I wouldn't be over here doing what I do if I didn't care about people, even in times when it seems like the church and Christians don't have an ounce of care for me. Its hard.


Thanks for reading. And now for more PICTURES. The next Vlog will be ready soon. Finishing SfC Brussels, then i will have to time for June's update. Hopefully i can cut it in the new Avid...if it doesn't keep crashing on me. Bleh.

Pitta from Plaka on the Grand Place

Katie tagged along Friday. She's staying at the SFC house till mid July.

Just outside of the Grand Place. Another example of street photograhy

Muslim women at the Grand Place. I think a wedding was about to take place

The Cathedral

Photo Scavenger hunt at the SfC Belgium picnic. Apparently one of the Mons locals was celebrating her engagement.

More of SfC Belgium

I'm pretty sure this is the first time I have had to do this sort of photo

And a random sign